catapillers and cocoons; for us inside the dark night

[Kenny Price]

Hi everyone,
Im most enthrawled with Rev Dale Blackford. Like all seekers, I came to a place where got stuck in quick sand. Ive been an great seeker, I have run to this lecture, attended this meeting, read this book, even lectured, and, then, when I lease expected it, slipped and fell into quicksand. Now I can only speek for myself, but the harder i try to get out, the deeper i sink. So, after singing the song "release and let go" for so many years, well, Im going to have to act on faith. Im afraid I will sink further if I let go, but, well, with faith, i have to let go. To be frank, I have no energy left to battle this. This is the most wonderful opportunity to be able to enter a complete transformation, yet, if anyone out there is experiencing this, it certainly isn't easy. It doesn't have to be hard but my humaness seem conditioned to resist. Well, I would like to discuss more, espectially share experience, strenth and hope. I have seen light, and gifts. While stil in the cocoon, wings are beginning to form.

[David Sapp]

Thank you for sharing...
Blessings in the Light,
David

[mary]

its worth knowing that you are going through a dark night ,praise god that you are not trapped in a dark night, keep on going ,step by step or crawling its only a few hours till day break. Can you see the rays of a new dawn,or are you being blinded by the light of a glorious dawn.
Faith is just imagining your desires ,feeling it in your being ,hey presto its yours..
Love.

[Kenny Price]

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Thanks Mary. When I entered the cocoon I found a pen and paper to write poetry with.

namaste

Kenny
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[Kenny Price]

Brian;

The dark night is an oportunity I cherish. the dark night is painful and lonley. Crisis.........opportunity...........please, lets correstpond. I am being gifted with lightworksers providing encouragement to stay on the path. All spiritual seekers would pay for a dark night experience. Some things money can't buy. Blessings and namaste. I would like to write more but back to work. my email is [e-mail], keep the faith (eventhough it appears to be hiding under the couch)..........sorry for the camp but gotta make light of this crazy world.

[Arwen Boyer-Earll]

I have been experienceing this dark night also for about three months. Prior to that, my experience wasI felt connected to spirit and God 90% of the time for about 6 months or more. During this time I felt that I needed nothing, and it was all taken care of, and felt full and complete in most every situation. What I experience now is stressed out and very needy on my envoroment to go a certain way for me to feel good. What I have noticed is that I am busier now and spend less time doing and being my spritual practices (breathing, meditation and prayer) and spend more time being of the world and its distractions and stress in my mind and body. I feel it slowly coming back and notice sometimes that I am not connected to source. When I do this I am present again, but I start thinking and forget again and am carried away by automatic thoughts and concerns, it seems I am only present for a few moments several times a day. This comparison of what I used to have and don't have is also thought that is not in the direction I would like to go. When I try to do my spritual practices now they feel ackward and don't work well. I am still growing in that not too long ago they would just make me cry. I am understanding of your situation and I try to remimber that the way I used to feel is in the past and all I have is now to work with. I think it is like now you know how good it can be and I know I am impatient to feel that way again. All is possible though the One. Faith, Discovery and Love

[Kenny Price]

Thanks James. This is beautiful. I have been writing a lot of poetry during the transition.

Blessings

Kenny

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[Arwen Boyer-Earll]

I have had my breakthrough in is. It is wonderful to feel connected to source and in the spirit again. It is great to feel like I am living in the now and experienceing my life full and real not as person on auto pilot with unwelcome thoutht running the show. Now I feel I am one voice. It happened over the Holiday break. I can not express how happy I am again. I have found that if I notice that I do not have the feeling I can create the feeling by taking a deep breath and saying several affirmation in a row and then repeating them over and over and also I may need to deny a few thing that are thoughts I need to release. One thing that may of made the difference was my underscheduled amount of time: to nuture myself and space to create or space to be. Peace Love and Joy
Arwen

[Teresa Propes]

Have you seen that sign with the little guy looking at a peace symbol and saying "what if peace really does start with me?"
Well, what if we are all really angels, here to help each other?

"T"

[Kenny Price]

Blessings Teresa;

Were all here to assist one another navigate the world to ascend and fulfill our sould purpose.

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[Denise]

I do have some experience with the "dark night." What might be happening is that you say you are "running" "attending" "reading" "lectured..." in essence, you are busy DOING.

What I have learned is that in my darkest night, I stop, weep if I have to, then simply be still. The Bible says "Be still and know that I am God." and I have found that during those moments of stillness, in the darkest of confusion and funk, is when the Light can start to shine again for me. It does not shine brightly at first -- that would be blinding -- but rather like a little flicker or a candle and I feel it as Peace rather than see it.

Another thing that works for me when I'm struggling is to sit quietly, meditate and start writing a gratitude list. Then, after a while, I make it a point to get out of myself and go work with another person. For example, I might sweep shovel somebody else's sidewalk or go walk my dog (or my neighbors) or something. If you must take action, a simple, methodical task with nothing expected in return seems to work best. You will be given a gift in that, I promise.

[Cynthia Rutherford]

I have been experiencing a dark night for nine years. In 2000 I lost a custody battle and my baby son went to live with his father and new stepmother. They were very vincdictive and untruthfull during the whole ordeal. I fell into the deepest depresion complete with insomnia, anxiety attacks, nightmares and loss of faith. I turned to drugs and alcohol to deal with the pain. My son was my whole world and I have never experienced any pain that would come close to the pain that caused me. I was stuck in the downward spiral for years. In the midst of this I had an intense spiritual experience that changed my whole life, not overnight, but gradually. In 2004 I finally got joint custody. Just when things seemed to have improved I have found out that his stepmother has been verbally abusing him and his personality has changed dramatically. He does not have good self esteem and his father does not want to believe it. There has just recently been a beam of light in my darkness with the finding of unity church, but now have found that my son has lyme disease and I am struggling with that. I am trying to remain optimistic. I have grown tremendously through all this but I want to move ahead and break down the walls I have built up to protect myself from pain. I think of my son and have this feeling of sadness that looms over me. This sadness is for all the crap he has had to go through in his young life. Not to be confused with depression, for I know how to put my mind into right thinking now. I still sometimes want to take his pain away but must remember without pain there is no growth. I am still keeping the faith and thanking god for all the wonderful hardships that have come into my life, for without them I wouldn't be where I am now. That is the beam of light that I have fixed my eyes upon, and I choose to keep it there, knowing that this too shall pass. I know that God is preparing me for great things and I can feel this in my heart. I have overcome depression, drug addiction, alcoholism, victimhood, and despair through this. I now see that all this happened for my greater good and thank god for giving me the wisdom to see this. Hang on when the dark night is in your soul and thank god for it all. Don't let yourself become resentful and hateful, but fight like a warrior to keep your heart open in love. It won't be easy and you wont always suceed, but if you perservere you will be victorious. I know the dark night is passing away. I can finally feel the soft rays of dawn. And so will you. BELIEVE IT

[sandy h]

Hi Kenny I am new to this so don't know if I'm on the same page..but I struggle with letting go of teachings that are so ingrained in me yet I know there is more knowledge now than ever and more insight into spiritual things..I am afraid I will leave something and may lose my soul..so ....unity offers so many interesting books and ways to look at things..I don't go to the church but have attended classes there..so don't FEEL alone .Blessings to you sandy h