catapillers and cocoons; for us inside the dark night

Hi everyone,
Im most enthrawled with Rev Dale Blackford. Like all seekers, I came to a place where got stuck in quick sand. Ive been an great seeker, I have run to this lecture, attended this meeting, read this book, even lectured, and, then, when I lease expected it, slipped and fell into quicksand. Now I can only speek for myself, but the harder i try to get out, the deeper i sink. So, after singing the song "release and let go" for so many years, well, Im going to have to act on faith. Im afraid I will sink further if I let go, but, well, with faith, i have to let go. To be frank, I have no energy left to battle this. This is the most wonderful opportunity to be able to enter a complete transformation, yet, if anyone out there is experiencing this, it certainly isn't easy. It doesn't have to be hard but my humaness seem conditioned to resist. Well, I would like to discuss more, espectially share experience, strenth and hope. I have seen light, and gifts. While stil in the cocoon, wings are beginning to form.

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Permalink Reply by sandra lomba on June 22, 2009 at 9:34am: hi kenny, today is june 21, 2009. not 100% sure. i have been attending unity for many years. i am experiencing a lot of fear. i feel alone many times. feel ashamed. no one who understands or with whom i can share. i have read, prayed, meditated, supplemented, taken medications, pretended, listened to tapes and i am now afraid. my friends at unity tell me that God is healing me now. i am confused. i have a wonderful husband and i am beginning to share with friends. many times i hid and many time i felt well. this is a difficult time for me. sometimes, while i am in bed at night i feel this tremendous anxiety - overwhelming - scary. during the day i have been feeling afraid of everything. my prayer is that i can embrace and honor my humanity. that i can hold on and realize that there is nothing to be ashamed of and that may wings may return so that i can fly.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Kenny Price on June 22, 2009 at 10:21am: Sandra;

Oh, yes, how well I can hear what experiences are taking place. All of the old is being removed and this is the hardest challenge that I had to face in my own life. I also have feelings of shame, feelings of not being understood, and its hard to know where and when to open up for a confidential share. We are both seekers, reading, praing, meditating and using medications when the going is so challenging. Its an overwhelming feeling, and, though, each day I have found that getting out of bed and showing up for life brings results that are from the divine; that grace is real. Its dark right now, and its a sacred time to be in this darkness. rev Dale has so much to offer us while were in our dark night of the soul, and we have nothing to be ashamed of, we are perfect whole and complete; yet; its been told to me a million times. My responsibility is to know this for myself, and when its dark, I have blind faith because i know its true. You are a winner, having the courage to reachh out and express yourself on the internet, asking for healp, and my prayers are with you during this time of transformation. Blessings; Kenny; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by sandra lomba on June 23, 2009 at 2:40pm: dear kenny, i am dealing with the shame by being authentic about where i am in this human experience. i am also asking for help. thank you for your prayers. who is Rev. Dale? sandra; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Kenny Price on June 23, 2009 at 2:44pm: Dear Sandra;

reverend Dale is on every Thursday at 2:00 west coast time "The art of being." He has helped my path tremendously. Let me know how I can be of service to you during this time while you are chosing to be authentic. This is a brave decision and I respect you. Kenny; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by sandra lomba on June 28, 2009 at 6:25am: Hi Kenny,
I am telling people how i am really feeling and asking for help and not trying to white knuckle it. it is hard because i associate the exterior with who i am. i am afraid of being rejected, seen as weak, less then, etc. I project a very strong, happy exterior and inside i was terrified, etc. I am just being truthful about where i am. it is not who I am. Please help with this if you can. Is Rev. Dale on Unity fm and if yes what time would that be in florida? Sandra; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Mariellen on June 23, 2009 at 3:06pm: I understand exactly where you're coming from. Recently laid off, I dived into spiritual matters of the heart (once again). I sometimes find myself going to sleep spiritually, consumed in the day to day matters and then when something upsets that, the only thing I know to calm the nerves is to re-awaken and return to god. For the last three months, I've read numerous inspirational books, somehow looking for the answer. Praying for a job, praying for the right job, praying for the strength to get thru this. I hear have faith, I hear believe and still there's anxiety.. The one emotion that has been replaced by faith is fear. I have no fear! I have a strong feeling that everything is going to be ok. I've had spiritual dreams that make me believe that "this too shall pass".. Believe, Have Faith... And, then there's those days that you think it's all for nothing, my prayers aren't being answered, I give up.. Hello, is anyone up there listening to me? I still continue to pray, I still continue to meditate, I still continue to believe that everything is going to be ok. I believe once you elevate to another energy level, another level of existence, there's no going back. The gift I've been given is that I have no fear. My mantra is "replace fear with faith"... I've come this far and somehow survived, this too shall pass. Without a connection to god, I have nothing.. With god, all things are possible. I truly believe that. So, pray for the energy to continue to believe. Pray for the willingness to continue to grow spiritually.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by sandra lomba on June 25, 2009 at 6:43pm: Dear Mariellen,
thank you for sharing with me. I feel it passing. there is still some fear. but i feel i am shifting. I have also continued my spiritual practice - although i have at times doubted that God was present.
I always go back to God because there is not where else to go. I have been authentic with friends, and my unity family about how i feel and where i am in my human experience. the support and love has been unbelievable. i never leave the darkness without a gift. Thank for your. Bless you on your journery towards the right and perfect. Yes, Never give up on God. and that includes us. Growing is painful and change is painful but with God and others we can withstand and over come. Blessings, sandra; ▶ Reply to This